randomness

Helplessness.

The pain you feel when you feel helpless. Like no other ppl can ever understand. You're stuck in a world of your old not being able to escape nor come out of it. No one can communicate anything to you and no one can reach out to you. The isolations n desertations that comes with the feeling - helplessness.

What do you do when you feel helpless? I've experienced it before and i broke down. The pain and thought just crushed me hard. and almost killed me. Because I cant believe it how it actually feels - worse than anything in the world.

Why do you feel helpless?

Because you are unwilling to share with anyone what the hell is bugging you like mad and not being able to be yourself truthfully with your friends just makes you go into a frenzy. Helplessness comes after you when you are stuck between two similar options with very different consequences. You feel as though nothin in the world can help, and yes. Nothing can not unless you allow it to.

Breaking down

Breaking down is nothing to be ashamed of. If you're under too much emotional turmoil and stress, breaking down once in a while is ok. Breaking down means you are acknowledging the weakness of you that is unable to carry up this responsibility of emotional package. But that does not necessarily be bad. It might just be a turning point in your life.

Maybe, thru this breakdown, you learnt to handle things better in life and may be it just might be your first and last.

Treasure each event in your life as you get to feel it, see it, hear it and be part of it. Many others just lack the courage and chance to do so. With a learning attitude, look forward to each life event whether gd or bad positively. at the end of the day, what you gained out of it is the most important.

And these gains just need not be material gains. but gains in wisdom and knowledge. :D

I'm sure there is something for everybody someday. Its only when.