lovers and friends.

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

-Jason Mraz; If it kills me.

This song was just being randomly played on my iTunes.
but yet it gave me so much to think about.
I don't know why.
It feels as though I should say something to someone who used to care alot about me.
But I made a choice that pushed him away.
Recently, I broke things off with my on-off boy.
he isnt even my boyfriend.
I wonder how I could have pulled thru so long.
maybe its the feeling of turning to him habitually.
maybe if I try to take a step back,
I would be able to break free of this vicious cycle of love.

Right now,I don't even wanna think about boys and love.
Family is what is important to me right now.
and I wanna cherish every single moment I might have with them.

Well,
I guess Im waiting for the guy that will say..

I will find a way to you if it kills me.