stupid&dumb

I feel like I'm the world's biggest idiot.

I am just like some idiot who is also stupid and dumb.

idiot n. A foolish or stupid person.

that definition seems to fit my quite perfectly ya?

sigh.

I just seem to keep making Sweety angry today.

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I don't know what to say to assure him,

I don't know what to do to make him feel better

I don't even know what is he feeling.

How very idiotic!

You guys must be nodding your head and agreeing w me.

To tell the truth,

I myself am also feeling abit insecure.

and I don't even know insecure about what.

About what may happen.

about how we are going to pull thru?

I don't know.

Today has been a day of don't knows.

I'm still going thru the shock of yesterday i guess.

What I really know is that I don't want to make Sweety angry anymres.

I don't want to go stay with Lee and study music in Aus.

I don't want to go away.

I just want to stay here and have Sweety around.

I just feel very empty,

very unsettled,

very irritated at myself.

Listening to the songs on Dawn's blog makes me feel a tweeny bit better.

But I really don't know why I'm always making Sweety angry.

He just went out to meet Kristie.

Hope that by talking to her, 

he can relieve some of the unhappiness he's feeling.

because I don't know how to help.

idiot!

I'm afraid he'll jus leave me like that.

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I feel so dumb and helpless.

All I can do is let tears fall.

like a helpless idiot.

idiot!