i dont know

I don't know why when im dead set about you,
u ask me to reconsider or rethink thru being w u.
i know what i want.
stop questioning whether this is really what i want.

i know what i need.

im not angry.
and i never did blame you.

stop blaming yourself.
its not your fault.

i was disappointed, yes.
but i never said with you.

i was disappointed we couldnt meet.
thats all.

and i am trying not to sound disappointed or anything.
and im definately not pekcheyed.

im not free on sat because there is my bestfriend's confirmation.
plus, i told u im gng to novena for nine weeks.
to pray for your health.

my bestfriend confirmation is like settled long ago.
i did told you and u did say ok.
now you're angry over that?

its not that i don't wanna meet.

you have no idea how much im trying to cope missing you in school,
on sundays we don't meet,
through the times we don't talk,
and every single MINUTE of my waking moments.

i never quite get it why you will think this way.
and be jealous of my bestfriend.
yes, he's a guy.
so maybe that makes u insecure.
i acknowledge yes, if im u i would too.
but i am trying to assure you.

u cant ask me to give up 5 years of friendship just like that.
and whatsmore,
he's attached.
and we are just gd friends.
he is just my bestfriend.
nth more.

yes maybe you are possesive,
its better than not caring at all.
and i m not angry about u being possessive.
but i ask for u to try to understand abit.
abit will do.

i don't always hang out w my bestfriend.
yes i do go for mass with my bestfriend every sunday.
but after that i dun hang w him alr.
its just for one and a half hour of mass.
and mass isnt hanging out.
cause its solemn and all.

yes maybe its hard for u to understand.
but i just wanna try to help u understand.

not replying my smses when ure angry isnt helping us communicate well.

u said when wither of us is angry,
we should talk things out.

i just hope u can open up n talk things out.

im willing to talk things out nicely.
are you?